Happy Monday! This post is months overdue, but I’m so glad that I’ve finally gotten around to writing it…
I really don’t like starting things and then abandoning them, but this series does have a reason for falling off the radar…and I plan to tell you why. So get yourself a cup of something yummy & settle in for a few minutes. This post is a bit longer than normal but a necessary read to understand the direction my blog will be taking this year. I hope you understand & enjoy! XO
So I created Becoming Bella in an effort speak openly & honestly about some of the struggles many women face when it comes to loving themselves for the beautiful & unique individuals that they are. Over the last 18 months I had been experiencing internal growth at a very rapid rate and was consistently garnering new insight that I was compelled to share with anyone & everyone that I could — in hopes that they could feel it too! Like most things in life, feelings change, and over I’d say the last 4 months or so, my euphoric attitude began to dissolve. Crap.
I couldn’t figure out what had happened. Life was getting me down, my blog was getting me down, so many different things had me feeling down. I had hunches, but no solid evidence to explain this emotional struggle I was going through. It didn’t hit me until recently, but when it did it smacked me right between the eyes. I lost my freaking pep!
This initially seemed like an odd thing to write about, but I’ve always tried to be very honest & transparent here. After speaking with a few people about it, I realized this is not an uncommon thing. A lot of us lose our pep! And after being someone who had quite a bit of pep, I knew that I wanted to do everything in my power to get it back.
First, I had to figure out where the heck my pep went …and why. Over the last year, I put a lot of time and effort into my blog and reaped some incredible benefits from doing so. At the same time, I constantly felt that I needed to be producing more valuable content, more quality images, and more unique material. I felt like my effort was no longer good enough… I had to be better! Creating posts was becoming all about the production & less about the authenticity. I cannot even tell you how many drafts are sitting in the queue because I wasn’t satisfied with them (38). You wouldn’t believe how many perfectly decent photographs I couldn’t bear to Instagram because they didn’t fit well in my feed – ugh, so dumb. In turn, my blogging schedule suffered, my social media accounts suffered, and I, myself suffered. There were times that it felt like too much to keep up with, and I considered pulling the plug on my blog. I thought that maybe it would be easier to quit all of it, and move on with life. But honestly, giving up seemed crazy! I worked incredibly hard to build this site… and at one time, well many times, it brought me more joy than anything! Then it kind of clicked. I was trying to turn my blog into something that it wasn’t & it was turning me into someone that I wasn’t too.
Once I was able to identify what was happening, I knew there had to be a way to fix it. So, what do you do to get your pep back after you’ve lost it? Or how do you find it if you feel that you’ve never had it? The answer is too simple. It’s something you’ve surely heard before but something you actually have to believe & physically do for said “pep” to arrive…
you just have to be you.
Seriously, that is IT. No matter what you’re doing in life, you have to do it in a way that only you can. With the pep that only you have. In my personal experience, anytime that I’ve put myself out there, my honest self, I’ve attracted all of the right things. The right collaborations, the right opportunities, and the right audience. By being me, I’m able to engage with people who I can connect with on a more intimate level. Engagement is everything, and when you find people who can not only read, but FEEL what you’re saying…you’re doing things right. It’s so important to remember that it’s not about quantity, it is about quality. Unfortunately, we live in a numbers-driven society and it’s very easy to be distracted or consumed with getting more followers, subscribers, likes, or comments. But don’t be. Cultivate quality, because quality will attract more quality…and before you know it, you’ll have an abundance of it.
Luckily, the New Year arrived with some fresh opportunities that really peaked my interest and provided me with the little kick in the tush that I needed. I’ve decided to take on 2017 with all the pep in the world and move forward with my blog, and my life as only I can do.
I want to get back to talking with you! I want to start real conversations again and feel excited or inspired by every single thing I put out there. For me, this blog is about more than the products, the clothes, the accessories – which do not get it twisted, I absolutely love & will always continue to share 😉 , but I want the verbiage to change. I want to be a little more real, I just want to be me.
Point of the story IS… we all go through phases in life. The only consistent thing about life is the ups and downs. Things will always be changing, but we have the power to respond to those changes. Don’t give up on something you love, let yourself get down, or fall into a negative space because things don’t seem like they’re working out. Figure out why they’re not working & what you can do to change that. For me, I had accidentally walked astray (as I write this I wonder if anyone noticed? To me it seemed so obvious!) I cringe because I knew not to fall into this trap (I had literally written about not falling into this trap!). I had paid a little too much attention to what others were doing and felt that my approach was no longer sufficient, effective, or strong enough. I was SO, so wrong. My approach works because it’s mine. And yours works because it’s yours. Not everyone is going to love you or your work but that’s OK, everyone doesn’t have to.
I’ve already drafted a few posts that feel more “me”, and I’ve kind of fallen in love with blogging again… I’m very much looking forward to sharing my new content with you! 🙂 You may notice that my posts will begin to read a bit differently, or maybe just read a little bit like they used to? Growth is crucial. It’s important to learn, progress, and advance in life, but sometimes we flourish best when we stay true to who we are.
I hope that you all find, keep, and nourish your pep this year because it’s worth finding; we deserve to feel inspired, and if nothing else…it makes waking up & living life a heck of a lot more fun!
Have you ever felt like you lost your pep? How did you get it back?
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